SHOCK! Maybe for you, but certainly not for me. You could read here that I was confused about the way of teaching, and I can confirm you that it still was the same at the end of November. My internship was amazing and I learned quickly and was actually ready to start with the technics of health care. But then the school part. It sucked, I was being pushes over my limits, I was forced to have 30 hours each week (15 school and 15 intern), even when I had my intern done I still needed to sit in the class. And continue on....
We'd spoken with second year students and they said that it won't be any better, so I was asking myself; "Why am I wasting my time and money to this study?" (nothing bad to say about the internship and colleagues.) - I was stressed, anxious and depressed to start my next school day. NOT good. I even tried to go back to the normal school route (like 5 days a week in class) but I was too far behind, I even sat crying there at school telling them that I had to stop because I couldn't catch up with everything.... I mean 3 big tests missed and no possibility to take them. Being a complete book behind and no time to catch up. It felt double, at one hand I was happy that I had no more stress and all that but at the other hand I felt like a loser that I gave up.
And now you can say "But you're just 22, go do another study." And I will answer you straight. "No." - I've done the things I like (besides studying English lit. or history but I need to go to the university for that and I don't have that much brains.) and I can't come up with something else.
So it's done, I'm going to work (and get this photography thing settled down and not going back to school. Maybe I'll do a parttime study in the future, but never fulltime study again.
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